Invincible

oh oh oh I'm in invincible......It's stuck in my head so I thought I'd name this article that. I'm not really sure where this is going, but I miss a certain someone that I basically always miss and I wish I was there like I was last weekend. I'm just more comfortable with him than anyone else in the world and I want to go back. I think I'm having a sort of delayed seperation anxiety since I am giving my truck back today, and leaving him last monday was the first time since my last birthday that I didn't cry like a baby when I left. I was sad, but no tears. I think that a lot goes unspoken between us, sometimes cuz we don't know how to say it, cuz we're scared sometimes I think just because there IS no way to say it. He discovered this last week, probably read some more articles while I was outside hiding my pride behind the excuse to smoke a cigarette. I don't know what he thought of any of it, I didn't ask, all I said was a teasing " fuck you levi" , now I wished I hadn't. I asked him monday morning what he was going to do after I left. "Cry", he said and I wondered if he was telling the truth.
He's so much wiser than I am. Being together is sort of a moot point, I can't really think too much, too seriously about that. One of us would have to sacrifice something and neither one of us is willing to let the other do that. Neither one of us even expects that. I've said and thought and cried over this shit so many times cuz it's so frustrating and sometimes I wish that once I felt these things over and over again so much that maybe after a while they become meaningless. The way any word will stop making sense if you repeat it enough times.....guess this isn't just any word.....